WELCOME TO THE FUCKEDUP WORLD OF ME.

can i just say how much i hate fucken scales! they are evil machines made specifically for torturing us. i'm suppose to be loosing weight...NOT gaining it! i went up a pound. that is so annoying i'm already fat enough!!! i'm trying to lose weight dosn't my body get that? i think it's just against me! maby i should just stop eating...but i can't. see my problem is i love food SSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much i can't stop sholveling it in. i have so much respect for those people that are annorexic cause they can acually say no to food. they have control over it. i have no control over food wich is why after eating sooooo much of it i have no other option but to get rid of it before it makes me insanly fat. i just want to be curvy and pretty, i'm not going for skin and bones, just attractive. i've been there before, and i'm determinded to be there again. this works i know it does cause it's worked for me before! i just need it to work again! just have to give it more time. keep trying, purge longer, keep going you'll get there this is what i tell myself.